You know, Iâ€™ve always wanted to be courted. Truly courted. The way that Iâ€™ve courted my girlfriends. Itâ€™s not just silly little things, itâ€™s big things too. I mean how many girls donâ€™t dream of someone just showing up at the airport to pick them up with flowers in hand. Especially when you werenâ€™t expecting it. How many girls would just die if you showed up and managed to find out when they were coming home and you were a long lost lover that they were just dying to see? Yes, itâ€™s scary. Itâ€™s putting yourself out there in a way that may just be rejected. Or flying across the country because you let them leave and you realize that this is the person you want to be with. So you show up anyway not knowing what would happen. Ok, it’s a little storybook like, but who wouldn’t want that? Sure, it’s terrifying to do. But let me tell you, thatâ€™s the kind of courtship I would kill for.
And ok, I can be an intimidating girl to date. Iâ€™m finally starting to get that memo. 10 years later, I get it (sortof). Iâ€™m not easy to date. Iâ€™ve been told this since I was 16 by quite a few of the boys who tried to ask me out (generally a couple years after my interest had faded and I categorized them as â€œfriendsâ€). Yes, I know boys love it when that happens. You finally have the nerve to ask a girl out and sheâ€™s like, â€œum yeah I really only think of you as a friend.â€ Trust me, it happens to lesbians too, itâ€™s not fun for us either. But thatâ€™s why I believe you should really court a girl you like. I mean ok, donâ€™t stalk the girl thatâ€™s not what Iâ€™m saying. But romance, I swear, is a dying art form.
I have always courted my lovers. Itâ€™s little things. Like one of my exes was having a bad day and I knew it but it was finals and I knew she had to study. So being the IT geek I am I noticed she was online in her dorm room so I stopped by with a latte and cigarettes. I didnâ€™t know what kind of coffee she drank but I knew the cigarettes she liked and I just took a chance. And the look I got and the following date we had were so worth the effort of just a little bit of thoughtfulness and courtship. Or you know, there was one time, I brought flowers to a club because all of the dates my flame at the time and I had just weren’t working out. She was so stunned by the arrangement and the gesture that she pinned me up against my car to kiss me passionately. Turns out later that she was a little crazy but it was worth it at the time. Real romance is something everyone craves. And it is so very hard to come by.
So girls (and perhaps boys, too) if you want to date me, this is what Iâ€™m asking for. To be courted. Truly courted. Not just taken to dinner. Not something boring. I want someone who will stand outside my doorstep with a rose just waiting for me to come down so itâ€™ll be a surprise. I want someone who will write me notes about the week they spent and all the things that made them think of me and put it in a jar. Just to share it with me the next time they see me.
I want someone to write me a card for every day we have to be apart when they know itâ€™s something neither of us want to do but is being forced upon us. I want someone to make me a mix cd just because they thought of me and they want me to know the music that makes them think of me. I want someone to write me love letters. Just because. I want someone well versed in the art of romance. Actually scratch all those suggestions, those are mostly things I’ve done before. What I’d really like is something that is uniquely you but equally thoughtful (or I mean if those things ring true for you then by all means do those too but do something that’s really you). For example, to this day my absolute favourite birthday gift is the t-shirt my ex made me that was of string theory but the picture she drew starts with a Texas instead of an apple. And the back said â€œdid you know 2005 is the world year for physics?â€ I remember she and her friends were doing this big secret project behind my back and I had no idea it was for my birthday. It is still one of my happiest memories. The back has all but fallen apart. But the front is still just as awesome as the day I got it. And I still love it. Because it was truly thoughtful, it was all of my favourite things on a t-shirt. For my birthday.
(Oh and the courtship, while I am serious that that is what I want but not really right now. Letâ€™s be honest, Iâ€™m not really over my most recent ex. I hate admitting that but it doesnâ€™t make it any less true. I’m just finally ready to think about romance again, which is where all this came from.)
I wish the world had a little more space for romance. I feel like in this modern age people have all but forgotten what real romance looks like. Sometimes it is big dramatic gestures but other times it’s just showing up in a goofy outfit just to make your loved one laugh when you know they’re having a bad day.